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Sep. 11th, 2017 10:13 pm
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I didn't take them for two days.

The first day, I simply forgot. I mean, I knew I had to take them, but filling out the pill caddy on Sunday is something I just hate doing. And, after doing other stuff before doing that, I simply forgot.

It got even easier to forget, today.

I still hadn't filled the caddy and I changed my routine. Instead of grabbing a quick sausage biscuit at McDonalds, I made some oatmeal at home. I stared at my little, empty pill caddy while I ate and, well, I don't remember even thinking about my pills. I think I realized I hadn't taken them while driving to work. (Normally, I take them with my biscuit.)

I got home, cooked dinner, and watched TV.

Came upstairs.

Saw my empty pill caddy again.

Fuck it, I thought, its too late. I'll just take 'em tomorrow. I'll be fine.

I stood up. The room spun.

I didn't fall, but I went to take my pills. I have the bottles lined up in front of me, now.

I hate taking medications. I've taken meds all my life. Earliest, it was for asthma and allergies. Then I got a prescription for glasses. These days, they're bifocals. And now I take meds that I inhale and snort. I have to take my diabetes meds with food. The rest, for high-blood pressure and cholesterol and low Vitamin-D and low-dose aspirin, I can take at will. I have to keep my dosage of anti-depressants at an even level or there can be pretty serious side-effects I'm told.

I hate all these prescriptions. I hate them so much I can sometimes understand why people just stop taking them. They may help keep you alive and on an even keel but they're also hand-cuffs.

Straight jackets.

Prison cells.

They both free and enslave. My C-PAP machine keeps me breathing at night.

But I still hate it.

I took my full amount, didn't take "extra". But tomorrow morning, I'll take my normal dosage.

Grudgingly, yeah, but I'll take them.

The worst part, I think, is that I know that this will happen again. I think it will happen with growing regularity if I'm not careful. It's easy to only think of the medications as shackles. I have to keep reminding myself that they make me freer than I would be on my own. I have to keep repeating this mantra:

Everyone thinks, sooner or later, they don't need 'em. Or, maybe, they wish they didn't.

But you do.

Take your meds.

That's how it works.

Even sitting here, I'm still dizzy. I guess that's today's price for stupid.

Yours,
Sylvan
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I found this over on Tumblr. The original (with links to supporting evidence) is here: "Jesus Christ Was A Brown Jew In The Middle East".

I quote it, below:

Jesus Christ was a brown Jew in the Middle East, conceived out of wedlock in an arguably interracial if not interspecies (deity and human) relationship, raised by his mother and stepfather in place of his absent father. He may not have had a Y chromosome. He spent his early youth as a refugee in Egypt, where his family no doubt survived initially on handouts from the wealthy (You think they kept that gold, frankincense, and myrrh from the wise men? Hell no, they sold that stuff for food and lodging). He later returned with his parents to their occupied homeland and lived in poverty.

The religion of Jesus’s people has no concept of a permanent hell and instructed its priests on how to induce miscarriages. Jesus explicitly rejected the concept of disability as a divine punishment. He spoke out against religious hypocrites. He had enough respect for women to let his mother choose the time of his first miracle. He blessed a same sex couple. He told a rich man that he must give up his wealth to get to heaven, and also told a parable about a rich man suffering in agony in presumably Gehinnom (basically Purgatory) just to hammer the point home. He told people to pay their taxes. He declared “love your neighbor” to be one of the two commandments on which all laws hang. He commanded his followers to help the poor. He commanded them to help the sick and the needy. He spent time with social outcasts. He healed the servant of a high priest during his arrest rather than fighting back. He was put to death by the occupying government because he was a political radical.

Trump and his administration are xenophobic, misogynistic, racist, fear-mongering, warmongering, tax-dodging, anti-Semitic, anti-choice, anti-welfare, anti-equal pay, anti-LGBTQIA+, anti-immigration, support tax cuts for the rich, support Citizen’s United, want to keep refugees out of this country, want to limit our ability to speak against the government, plan to abolish the Affordable Care Act, and they wrap all of that up behind a banner of “Christian family values.” If you support them, you have no right to call yourself a follower of Christ.


I may not be a practicing Christian but I can and do respect that faith's ethics and morals as practiced by so many who have translated the ancient texts into modern living.

This posting is what I believe to be the best way to summarize my problem with so-called "Christians".

Yours,
Sylvan

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